While I was on my mission trip in Honduras, I had to lead a devotion for our team. To say that I was dreading this would be an understatement. I had no idea what to write about. Then it came to me; I'd write about control. I have an intense need to be in control and that's not really possible on a mission trip. I was set...until someone else did a devotion on the same topic before I did. Back to square one. Then, all of the sudden I thought of multiple ideas and started writing. When all was said and done I had about three potential devotions. Here's the one I ended up sharing, I thought I'd share it here because I think it turned out pretty well.
The responsibility of leading a team devo ranks right up there with covering my tattoos as far as "things I'm excited about doing." I've never considered this to be my thing and I don't like praying aloud. So, adios comfort zone!
The past two months have been hard for me. I lost my job and have yet to find a new one. My motivation for my newfound workout plan disappeared as did my healthy diet thanks to stress eating. The stress has also manifested in some sexy fever blisters, so I've got that going for me. Comparatively, to the problems of the people here in Honduras, I'm just being a whiny brat; but for me, my world has been rapidly spiraling into a hot mess.
My first mission trip was smack dab in the middle of a crappy season of life. Naturally, this trip is exactly what I need. It's provided my typically anxiety-riddled mind with peace. And just as God provided this trip for me, I know He'll provide the other things I need, too. Although the OCD control freak in me hates that I can't see God's timeline, the believer in me trusts that a new job, healthy relationship, and the financial independence to move out of my mother's house are on it in exactly the right places. And if He wants to give me a peek at that timeline, well that's just gravy.